5:50pm the evening before surgery Tomorrow we will be getting up at 5:30, leaving the house between 6 and 6:30am to drive Duchess in for surgery. I feel nervous for the future, but ready to get this tumor off of her body. I am scared for anesthesia just anticipating everything ahead. I’m scared for recovery. I’m scared for my girl. I know all of the stats about recovery and how she will do and how she will be a warrior and bounce back, but until I see her I will be scared. I’m also strangely feel a bit guilty, like I’m taking her leg without her consent even tho I know it will take her pain (trust me I repeat over and over in my head that I’m taking her pain which involves taking the leg) but i can’t seem to shake the guilt that maybe she will hate us. I feel bad for her that we HAVE to do this. Anyways just venting for today. She’s about to eat her final meal on 4 legs, so strange.
2 thoughts on “Evening before amputation; anxiety is creeping in”
We’ve all been thinking of you and your baby today. Your feelings are all normal, and I remember thinking all of those same things when Winston, my golden boy went through that 11 months ago. The first few weeks will be hard, but know that we’re all here for you. I look at how well Winston does on three legs, and sometimes I forget he had four. The best part is that she will be out of pain as she heals.
I feel your pain. The day I took Kaiserin for her amputation was probably the worst day of my life. I was so scared. I thought her life was over and nothing would be the same. Now just over 6 months later, she is doing wonderful. So much better than I ever could have imagined. I have my baby cancer free and acting the same as she did before. The recovery is tough but manageable. Good luck. You can do it!
We’ve all been thinking of you and your baby today. Your feelings are all normal, and I remember thinking all of those same things when Winston, my golden boy went through that 11 months ago. The first few weeks will be hard, but know that we’re all here for you. I look at how well Winston does on three legs, and sometimes I forget he had four. The best part is that she will be out of pain as she heals.
Let us know how she’s doing. ❤️
Shelly and Winston
I feel your pain. The day I took Kaiserin for her amputation was probably the worst day of my life. I was so scared. I thought her life was over and nothing would be the same. Now just over 6 months later, she is doing wonderful. So much better than I ever could have imagined. I have my baby cancer free and acting the same as she did before. The recovery is tough but manageable. Good luck. You can do it!